BLADDER CONTROLL WHATS THAT?

Since having kids I can honestly say I have a crap bladder.  Its even worse when I actually am pregnant as I am at the moment.  I think I should get a tele put in the bathroom or an entertainment system because I seem to spend more time in there than anywhere else in the house.  Oh for the days of my youth when I didnt need to go to the loo that often I could go out drinking with mates and last ages without that loo visit.  I think the answer maybe carry a kids potty with me at all times in case I get caught short lol.  Or get some paddy pads even better.  You men have it easy you dont loose that control after having kids.  You may loose control of your wallett to pay for everything they need or your nerves because they like to test you to the limits but bladder control will not be in the list of things you loose after having kids.  How lucky you all are.

God My Hormones Are To Pot

Well my pregnancy hormones are well and truly in full flow.  I feel like a paranoid wreck at the min.  The slightest thing seems to set me away.  I was sat watching Jade Goodings wedding and I was a blubbering wreck.  I really feel for her and her family this must be a very sad time for them all.  I would really like to wish her family and her all my love and best wishes  at this time.  I think she is a wonderful woman no matter what anyone else says she is trying to provide a future for her boys even though she will not be there to share it.  I say exploit exploit the media as much as you can.  You have done it in a dignified way and you and your boys should be proud of the way you have done it.  To Jade if you do read this GOD BLESS.

THE SAGA CONTINUES

Well as you all know I am expecting my fourth child in June. Last week I had to go for a glucose test as my father was a insulin dependent diabetic when he was alive. When I was pregnant with my second child I had an impaired glucose test and therefore had to attend a special clinic. They wanted to put me on insulin which I refused and asked if I could do anything else so they said control your sugars by diet and exercise. Which I did, they loved to panic you because they kept saying I would have to have a section and the baby would be over 9lbs. They were wrong on both points my baby was 6lb and I delivered him no probs. My third child my test was fine but they wanted and insisted I attend the clinic and once again i controlled my sugars and once again they tried to panic me by saying he was going to be a big baby and once again he wasn’t  he was a 7lb one. Well I knew what to expect I suppose when I went for this test the night before I was ill vomiting and crippled with indigestion. My sugar level was 6 on the morning and after I had drank my glucose at the hospital two hours later 5.8. the new guidelines i was told was 5.8 on a morning and 7.8 two hours after a meal. So I did it I stood up for myself and told them I would not attend the clinic I knew what I needed to do and would do it. They didn’t like it but have said they will let me get on with it as along as I contact them if my sugars gets out of control which I promised I would. You know what, all I want to do is enjoy this pregnancy with out that stress. I know this is going to be my last child and I just feel I have the right to do things as much as possible how I want it. I of course will not risk my unborn child’s health and will watch my diet and exercise. I just think when we are pregnant alot of things are taken out of our control not necessarily due to the risk of the health to the baby. I think they have their numbers they need to meet and must prove they are doing their jobs instead of looking at things on a individual basis for a expectant mother.

Please Help

Well as time is approaching and my pregnancy is progressing well I find myself with a problem. I need some help advice and well some ideas really on the name or names I should give my daughter. You see having three boys already I sort of know the boys names I like but I never thought I would have the honour of picking a girls name I thought I was one of these mythical women who can only carry boys. Well my scan proved that wrong its a girl. So now I have this issue about a girls name that I want to be unique. Me and my husband chose the name Willow but every time I am asked what I will call this baby when I tell them their lack of response or the comment mmmmm yeah well I haven’t heard that before makes me doubt this decision to name her this. So now I have a problem of do I pick a different name or do I continue with our choice. Please if anyone can think of a really nice girls name that is not common or has a meaning behind it then let me know.

NEWS FLASH

Well its took me sometime to get my bum into gear and get back on here and let you all know yep I am expecting again.  I am 16 weeks pregnant and everything is going well.  I am feeling really crap.  Morning sickness that lasts  all day every day.  Food tastes crap, smells make me want to be sick.  I can pee for England.  However,  this is all great because I am going to be a mum again.  My boys are excited apart from they cant decide if they want a brother or a sister.  We are telling the world now because we feel this is really going to happen fingers crossed.  So I will keep you updated on the progress of the bump.  Hope everyone has a wonderful new year, good luck to all and best wishes.

A Poem From The Heart

Angel up high guide me through these troubled waters.  Let there be calm waters with ripples of joy.  May my life be one of learning.  Let my heart be open to love.  Let my eyes see the goodness, purity and innocence in people I thought was lost.  Let the dark clouds banish and let the sunbeams warm my chilled face.  Let the rain drops wash my worries away.  Let the wind blow opportunities my way.  But most of all let me be me.

The Great Escape

Last night me and my husband made the mistake of going outside to clean the back yard. The reason I say it was a mistake is because my two cats got out. We didn’t realise this until later on in the night when one of the cats appeared at the front door when my husband took some rubbish out. For some unknown reason we assumed the other cat was in the house. Anyway after watching the TV and deciding we were bother tired we started the routine of feeding the animals and turning appliances off etc. Well I went upstairs got into my PJ’s and settled down to watch a bit of TV in bed. The next thing I know my husband comes upstairs to inform me he wont be joining me in bed. He told me that our other cat was missing and he was going to have a walk about the streets to see if he could get him in. Well after about 20 mins he came back in and told me there was no sign of him. So Yes you guessed it I went out into the garden in my PJS to trying and help after about an hour we still had no joy. So although I did not want to go to bed with out him being back and me being the worrier that I am I decided we need to get to bed. Well I never settled properly but at 4.30 am we heard an all mighty noise outside. Two cats fighting, me and my husband jumped out of bed ran downstairs to see if one of them was ours. Yep it was he was fighting with the neighbours cat boy the chase was fun for my husband who had no shoes on his feet across the street under a car over the round round a bend and on a grass verge lol Well he grabbed him claws and fur flying but we got him in. So my heart was racing something terrible and we went back to bed. When we got up a couple of hours later we checked him out and he was a bit sore but boy did that cat get spoilt. It was loosing one of my kids I have told the cat he is grounded for the rest of his life lol

The culprit Sylvanis

9/11 remembering

Today I sat and watched a TV programme which was the Maury show from America. The show was talking about 9/11 and in particular a pair of brothers called Joseph and John Vigiano. These two men were serving officers in the fire brigade and the police force. These two brothers had gone to work a normal day in their lives they had said their goodbyes to their wives and children and even spoke to their father that day and told him they loved him. They have actually made a film relating to their stories which won an Oscar. It really hit home today after watching this programme seeing a couple of faces and their stories behind the numbers of the dead. I sat and cried and I am not ashamed to admit I felt the pain for their families and friends. The show was really good and at the end they brought one of the men’s children on and gave them loads of toys. Which I thought was really nice but I couldn’t help thinking although it was a nice gesture it did not bring their father back. The two men’s father was there telling his story about his brave children and I just thought this is so wrong for this man to know he as out lived his children how on the scale of life this is not meant to happen. I know we all experience loss of a loved one at some point in our life whether it is expected or not but what a tragic loss to have lost all his children in one go. I know that they live on in their children but they will not see them grow and experience life. I know that I am very lucky that I did not have a loved one or anyone truthfully that I knew die on that awful day. All I can say is my thoughts really do go out to anyone who was affected on that day and as we are approaching another anniversary of that day. I sit down and honestly think we have suppose to have moved on from the days when we settled our disagreements with fists, we honestly haven’t we are still such a barbaric race at times. When will we ever be able to stop all senseless killings. Never in my life time I am sure.

The start of a journey

Well after loosing my second pregnancy the hospital have actually heard my concerns.  Normally they wait untill you have lost three pregnancy’s.  However, because this happened so soon after the first one and very quickly and of course my age.  That’s me being 38 years old, they are going to refer me to a special clinic.  This will do some tests on my bloods and hopefully help me to succeed a healthy pregnancy.  I have to wait six weeks before they can do anything because they need all the traces of the hormones in my body to have gone.  I actually felt like there maybe a glimmer of hope for me to actually have another child.  If this doesn’t work then me and my husband have discussed adoption.  Which hopefully we will be acceptable for that.  So I am now keeping my fingers crossed.  So if anyone out there can keep their fingers crossed too then thank you.

Good day bad day

I couldn’t believe it today when I was reading the paper.  There was an article showing a picture of a cow which had escaped and abattoir and then fell down a manhole.  Helpers tried to flush the cow out but unfortunately for the cow they could not help this way.  It ended in the rescuers having to sedate the cow and then pull it out.  One thing it never said in the article was if the cow was took back to be slaughtered that would have just been a bit of bad luck after the near escapes it had don’t you think.